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I woke up one morning not long ago absolutely heartbroken. It was honestly like I'd been hit by a train. It took everything in me to even manage to get dressed and I think I did my make-up at least five times, because as soon as I was done, my face filled up with Lancome mascara and ruined it all again.

 

And my lovely, adorable, kind friends said all the right things about how time heals all and how everything would be OK before I knew it. But I needed everything to be OK right now, I didn't have time to wait, I couldn't possibly wake up another day feeling like this! So I felt sorry for myself for weeks and weeks and listened to Coldplay singing about heartbreaks and let-downs as I ate my Ben and jerrys caramel sutra ice-cream, sobbing because I felt like every song they've ever written was for me: "When you're away, I can't get you out of my mind. But what if you're not the one and I'm wasting my time?

 

I was basically making myself even more miserable, like one does when it feels like the world has come to an end. But then a very clever friend said: You cannot control anything in this situation apart from how you decide to make yourself feel. And that was all I needed to hear. I ran to the shops and bought my favourite food (tikka massala and chocolate), did a facial and watched a movie, and I felt a little better. I wasn't fine, but I did something nice for myself and that made the day a little easier.

 

Every single day you make a choice, so every single day, I decide that I'm in a good mood. Sure, I do have moments of sadness, I haven't healed yet and that's fine. I give myself about an hour to feel the emotions, but then I snap out of it, and you will too.

 

This makes me think of another Coldplay lyric: